Tuesday, May 24, 2011

My Prayer Today

*all quotations from John Piper*

"Fight for us, O God, that we not drift numb and blind and foolish into vain and empty excitements. Life is too short, too precious, too painful to waste on worldly bubbles that burst. Heaven is too great, hell is too horrible, eternity is too long that we should putter around on the porch of eternity."

...Lord, help me set my mind on things above...

"Christ did not die to forgive sinners who go on treasuring anything above seeing and savoring God. And people who would be happy in heaven if Christ were not there, will not be there. The gospel is not a way to get people to heaven; it is a way to get people to God. It's a way of overcoming every obstacle to everlasting joy in God. If we don't want God above all things, we have not been converted by the gospel."

"The critical question for our generation—and for every generation—
is this: If you could have heaven, with no sickness, and with all the
friends you ever had on earth, and all the food you ever liked, and
all the leisure activities you ever enjoyed, and all the natural beauties
you ever saw, all the physical pleasures you ever tasted, and no
human conflict or any natural disasters, could you be satisfied with
heaven, if Christ were not there? " 

...Father, my only hope, my only goal, is You.  I want to be found with You...

"The ultimate good of the gospel is seeing and savoring the beauty and value of God. God’s wrath and our sin obstruct that vision and that pleasure. You can’t see and savor God as supremely satisfying while you are full of rebellion against Him and He is full of wrath against you. The removal of this wrath and this rebellion is what the gospel is for. The ultimate aim of the gospel is the display of God’s glory and the removal of every obstacle to our seeing it and savoring it as our highest treasure. “Behold Your God!” is the most gracious command and the best gift of the gospel. If we do not see Him and savor Him as our greatest fortune, we have not obeyed or believed the gospel."

Monday, May 16, 2011

Overflowing

I have far too many thoughts running through my head right now to condense them into one post.  I've had a notebook with me almost constantly the past week just to get some of them onto paper.  I think the best way to share this story is to do it in small parts. 

For now, here is a song that I've been playing on repeat.  So powerful, the bridge brings tears to my eyes.

Monday, May 9, 2011

Telling the Truth

Dear Heidi (and anyone else who still reads my blog even though this is only my second update in 6 months),

I am about to start blogging a lot more frequently.  I have a lot to say because in recent weeks I have learned a LOT.  About a lot of things.

One of my goals for this blog from the beginning was to be totally transparent - to share my joys and my sorrows, my triumphs and my failures.  There have been more failures and sorrows than triumphs and joys lately.  I want to share them completely, but unfortunately I can't.

But I am going to share some, probably more than some people want me to.  Here's the thing though - I'm tired of lying and covering my own faults to protect the greater faults of others.  If I am ever going to get my life back together I need to be open and honest. 

I need to tell the truth, to myself and to others.  I'm not lying anymore or covering things up just to help others avoid the consequences of their own choices. 

I'm telling the truth, for my own sake.  Otherwise I'll never be set free.

Stay tuned....

Monday, December 13, 2010

Laura Bush

The wedding was over a month ago and I still haven't posted.  After promising to take pictures and post immediately, my camera never left my suitcase.  I was having way too much fun to even worry about a camera.  The good news is that I have some beautiful memories and wonderful stories from a weekend with dear, dear friends (and, of course, got to witness the beginning of what I am sure will be a beautiful marriage).  The bad news is that it will be almost impossible to share with you all the joy we experienced in those few days.

These pictures have all been stolen (via facebook) from Laura's sisters and from the photographer (who, by the way, is AMAZING).  All formal shots were taken before the wedding and they didn't take super long.  And, during the reception, she got some beautiful shots without turning the whole reception into a photo op.  I barely noticed she was there, which, in my opinion, makes her even better.















Sunday, December 5, 2010

Just Sayin'

Mark Twain offers some insight into what is currently my greatest annoyance.

"In the first place God made idiots. This was for practice. Then he made School Boards."
- Following the Equator; Pudd'nhead Wilson's New Calendar